lenarise-deactivated20191107:

SO MUCH. i sent ashlee a mess of thoughts earlier this morning but like. im thinking so much about aden i woke up on an aden kick im so. an g r y that they killed him. the 100 generally sucks now but can you imagine how cool it wouldve been had aden ascended.

like, he wins his conclave of course. he’s the most promising of his novitiates, even better than lexa was before her conclave, of course he wins. and he accepts the AI and after the whole ceremony is said and done, clarke finds him. finds him to tell him he’s alright. he just killed all his brothers and sisters and lost lexa in a single 8 hours and the only other person who could possibly understand would be clarke of course, who has killed time and time again when she didnt want to and of course, who feels lexa’s death the most. she tends to the wounds he got from the hunger games type fighting sequence. she sits with him. and she waits.

for anything, any sign of lexa. she believes she’s in there because she’s seen lexa talk about the previous commanders and she believes it now, now that it makes sense to her and now that she only has two options: believe it or lose lexa. so she waits and she waits and she waits until aden finally admits it

“i can feel her in my head”
“whats it like”
“calm”
clarke just smiles. “she was always calm. it drove me nuts”
“she’s proud of me”
“we both are”

basically just. clarke loving aden to death and staying in polis to help him in any way she can. he’ll ask her for advice sometimes “what would lexa do” and she’ll tell him bc she knew her so well and its oddly therapeutic to talk about lexa with someone who loved her so much. i jus t

its not fair that he died too cause if any one person could have helped clarke survive this it wouldve been aden and she would have loved him to death i mean they would have been fucking family ok fight me